The hole in the middle of my bagel

Working through my current malaise a kind soul sent me a quote:-

“Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise.” – Victor Hugo

So I looked for a quote myself, not one that provided hope or a solution but one to sum up how I currently feel.

I found it created a process of thoughts in my head that surprised me. The first:-

Mine could not be a story about the building of character, but about its erosion, about the slow accumulation of small forces and events that ultimately dries the soul and leaves the heart empty.
Gonzalo Munévar

Is somewhat self indulgent, but effectively reflective on the current state of mind.

The second :-

Youth always tries to fill the void, an old man learns to live with it.
Mark Z. Danielewski

Suggests there is no hope but I instantly bristled when I read this choosing to instantly disagree, I know that even though I feel like this there is always hope. If I truly believed there was no hope I simply wouldn’t get up tomorrow.
That hope is not even visible it’s simply a knowledge but that knowledge is enough to make me continue the journey.

The next quote was this:-

Nothing has an unlikely quality. It is heavy.
Jeanette Winterson

Now if we repeatedly lift a heavy weight we become fatigued, but if we allow ourselves time to recover we become stronger.

So with that thought I kept on reading and I found this :-

a kind of emptiness existed in the center of my bagel; really
it was just the hole that’s in the middle
of all bagels; ‘i need to go read my blog
to find out what my politics are
Tao Lin

This made me smile. See it’s getting better already.

One last quote that sums it up sent to me by a friend

“Hope is important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. If we believe that tomorrow will be better, we can bear a hardship today.”
– Thich Nhat Hanh

I believe.