It was fun whilst it lasted…..being dumped.

So I’m lying here amongst the broken glass, bleeding from the heart looking back at the remains of my relationship. One minute I was cruising along, the wind in my hair, the sunshine of love warming my face when somebody slammed on the brakes and undid my seatbelt at the same time launching me into my current state.

Enough of the colourful metaphors, I’ve been dumped! Ok that’s a bit harsh, we’ve come to the end of something and we’re being grown up about it but essentially that’s what it is.

It just goes to show that no matter how amazing you think something or someone is and no matter how good the sex is, if they are not 100% there then it won’t work.

Am I cross? No she went in with good intentions, she didn’t lie to me, she felt as I did up to a point but then somewhere along it stopped.

I’ve been guilty of the same myself and hurt other people without intention and right now even though no Ill was meant I’d like to apologise because this feels fucking awful!

So now what? Well my expectations have been somewhat raised. A size 6, 30 year old, sexually open and adventurous women is not something your average 39 year old slightly balding man with two kids gets everyday.
Time to lick my wounds and regroup. I know that I have lots to give and whilst I’m not ready to go back to plenty of fish for a while I know that when I do it’ll be with the full intention of a relationship and not for casual adventures because when it was good it was the best feeling in the world.

For that I thank her, for those who have had your hearts broken don’t give up, open yours again because as much as this hurts you just might find that feeling again.
You can’t have rainbows without rain after all.
Watch this space although I may be quiet for a while….